This may be a bit long, but you're gonna want to read all the way to the end.
There's something good down there. Just sayin'.
I'm seeing how these three little things go together:
Believing in Me
They are not automatically great partners.
They don't always show up at the same place at the same time.
But when the three join forces, powerful things happen.
Effort may have to come first. Whether or not you believe in yourself. You just have to get in there and do "the work." And defining work is going to be a whole lot different for me than it is for you.
It means painting.
Not dreaming of painting.
Not taking another class that teaches painting.
Not dabbling in painting here and there and sometimes.
It meant committing to painting all the time. (Well, you know, with a day job and a small child, when I could fit it in.) But it meant fitting it in when sometimes it would have been more fun to go have coffee with a friend, or die a slow death on Facebook. Making the choice to put paint on canvas and do it again and again and again. Having a goal certainly helped. A lot. But it was only me that could keep it moving along. No one else was going to call me up and say, "Hey, whatever happened to those 43 paintings?"
The believing in me part? Whoa. That's a slippery slope, isn't it? One moment it's there. Next it's gone. Surrounding myself with other like-minded souls has helped tremendously. Get yerself some! And if you don't know where to start, go here, even if you don't paint. You may just want to start. Trust me on that one. And put yourself out there. Be seen. That is the scariest shit ever. In my honest opinion. Your results may differ.
By sharing yourself, your vulnerable places? People respond. And they will encourage you. Wouldn't you do the same for someone else? The naysayers? Make less or no time for them. Say no to anything that doesn't fill you up. Especially if it makes you feel guilty for saying no. Especially then. Even if you have to say no over and over and over. It gets easier. People may not understand. Watching you blossom though? They may start to get it. They may surprise you. Oh, and definitely say yes to the things that DO fill you up. For sure.
The magic? Well. It seems that my experience has been that by focusing on the first two? (Effort. Belief in Me.) That suddenly magical things happen. Or you could call it synchronicity. Being in the right place at the right time. Knowing the exact right person. Doors open. Angels sing. Seriously.
And I can only tell you this because I am experiencing it.
No new-age mumbo-jumbo sparkly-pants woo woo.
(Well, for me it's the same thing. Grin.)
But, YES. From my personal direct experience.
I have been painting.
I have been shedding the old voices of not-enoughness and adopting the ones of YES I CAN-ness.
Magic has happened.
Here's one result of all three:
Next Saturday, May 12, 2012.
You are personally invited.
Expressive Souls - Art Show
By Indigo Carlton
Twenty original works of art, by me!
Rosebud's Cafe, Jackson, California.
That's right. Me.
That's right. Me.
Can I tell you exciting this is for me? Can you even imagine? Twenty years ago I would never have believed that I would someday have the courage to take the steps I have taken. To make real the dreams that have lived in my heart for so long. To have believed in myself enough to see magic happen.
Friends? You all believed in me and helped make this happen.
Deeply. Truly. Completely.
More information next week. Promise. With more details.
Oh, and because I haven't been busy enough.
Next week I also will be showing off my new website!