Monday, February 11, 2013

Slowing Down, Despite Myself

Feeling better these days, succumbed to the nasty viral thing going round, not quite the flu, definitely a cold, couch bound, hanging out with my son who also caught the nasty thing.

And, granted, the view from my couch is quite inspiring, a little other worldly. Perfect medicine.

 Art by Brad Devereaux. Artist Extraordinaire.

But in the nastiness (it's still lingering, two weeks later...) I also was forced to slow down. To come to a complete stand still.

I had been poised - to start off this year - with a busy, get-down-and-dirty to-do list too.

Ha. 

Nope.

And that was the point.

Stop you silly girl.

Put away the to-do list.

It's not like that anymore.

It's time to start listening to you heart, not filling your days with busy-ness thinking you *know* what it takes to get where you want to go. Your brain? It only sees part of the picture. Your heart? Sees the grand view. Why not trust it? Why not listen really well? Why not?

"Because... but... I don't know... I need SOMETHING to do, right? THIS is how it's DONE. Right?"

Oh Fear. You are so much fun.

So. 

Sigh.

This is a repeat lesson for me. It's not new. One that comes up again and again. Trying to get through my stubborn thick skull. But I'm finally listening, and that's new. 

AMAZING things happen when I stop trying to PLAN every little bit of my path/life. When I slow down enough to hear my heart's quiet encouragement, I end up in some pretty spectacular places. Of course, places I would NEVER have included in that plan in the first place.

Maybe, just maybe, this will be the year to really get it. To finally hear.

I'm going to give it a try.

Here's me. Feeling almost human again. Hanging out. Not doing. Just listening.

My most favorite sunglasses EVER. Someone called them cat-eyes on steroids. LOVE that.

4 comments:

  1. Glad you are feeling better! Love you!

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  2. I needed to listen to this. Thanks for that.

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  3. ah yes...i hear this, my seeester!

    it's hard, though, isn't it? just letting go like that...but it does work...

    *sigh*

    be well and happy listening.

    xo

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